10:24 PM
is this how friends should treat each other? after the help that i render (even if its not much), after the times whereby i try my very best to make everything alright, i try my best to be there for Z... is this what i should get?
if after everything that i've done, and i get this kind of treatment in the end, i rather not have friends, i rather not trust anyone, i rather be a lone ranger.
though i've not done much to help, or watever... but it seems to me that at those point of time, i remember Z thanking me profusely for lending a listening ear, but now? just because of 1 harmless remark, our friendship will drift apart.
i meant no harm, neither do i understand how come Z take it so personally, and was offended just because of 2 words. it has nothing to do with stupidity or cleverness - everyone should know what the 2 words actually mean, it just mean 觉悟 or 领悟. its not a bad or insulting comment rite? its a gd thing that the person finally realises and wake up.
i dun think its fair to me if i were to be condemn over this silly thing, i dun think i have any fault, i just think that its not a thing that anyone ought to be so angry abt.
its not as though i ka jiaowei or watever. i just simply think changing for the better is a good thing. of all the friends i know, Z is one of the smartest i came across.
i wasnt trying to insult, though i can be pretty insulting if i choose to.. its just supposed to be a harmless comment. i really have no idea why anyone should take it so personally, there's really nothing i can do or say if thats the case. anything just say infront of mi, dun tok behind my back. y dun u practice wat u preach?
wat disappoints me most is that despite our good friendship (or maybe its oni a good friendship to me and not to Z), Z didnt choose to be frank with me, but still act as if nothing has happen before.
we've spent many happy times together, am i such a person? though we dun really know each other for a long time, but to me, i think i am one of the easiest person to understand, dun Z understand me? or i am such a person to Z?
i really dun understand how come Z take it so personally. what exactly is there to be so angry about? i really duno. neither do i expect that Z will get angry, and still act as if nothing has happen.
in any case, i've learnt my lesson.. never to help so readily.. being kind doesnt pay well at all. if Z really read all these ( i duno if Z does read my blog) and get offended again, theres really nothing i can say.
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