my mood is like a roller coaster these few days.. for no reasons, i feel down, depressed n scared. for some reasons, i feel anger n frustrations. for good reasons, i feel blissfulness.
dear and friends were asking, what is wrong? who provoked u again? i didnt answer.. not because i dont want to, but because i duno why.
ah, i know what u guys are thinking.. no no, my menses has finished.
its strange to see friends avoiding you, or reluctant to update you of their life.. probably not because they dun love u anymore (i certainly hope not).. not because they are too busy to.. but because they are scared of you..
u noe.. i have never think of myself as someone unapproachable.. i also never think of myself to be someone that unreasonable.. is this the image that i portray? or is it perhaps ppl dun really understand me that well?
am i really that fierce? well.. i admit i dun have the greatest temper, i admit it takes just a little to piss me off.. but i do have quite abit of tolerance.. at least i wont flare infront of u, unless u really make me very pissed off.
am i that unreasonable or narrow minded that i cant accept anything out of ordinary?
why do everyone always think the worst of me? lol.
ok, to the happier things.. ktv was enjoyable with jiayi n guys.. took pictures with gary's professional camera.. but i think its too close up, so all of us look fat.. ok, looks even more fatter for my case..
had bk for dinner, n sit n slack at starbucks. enjoyed ourselves with all the lame jokes and other discussion topics.. i was very tired n wanted to sleep.. but clarence keep shaking my chair to keep me from falling asleep.. naughty clarence. lol. then he keep pushing n pulling my chair about. he say its very light. lol. so i replied that its the chair that is light, not me. haha. gary n jiayi keep switching places coz jiayi wanted to take photos. she's so obsessed with gary's camara that she keep taking photos of us. ok lar, more of clarence probably because he's new. lol. so as i sat between clarence n gary, they push my chair, or rather, me, from left to right, from me to you (from clarence to gary lar). -.-
i think the pics will take sometime to load.. i hope they wont kill me for posting all these. lol.

levyne, me, jiayi.

me and levyne

me n jiayi

jiayi n me

gary n me

clarence n jiayi

me n clarence

jiayi n gary

dear say this pic is nice. but i dun think so leh.. lol!
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oh.. i duno if this is going to count for a propose but.. ok, this is the conversation we had on thursday..
dear: eh i know where can we go on my birthday
me: where?
dear: we go engage lor!
me: har?! what engage?!
dear: engagement lar! rom!
me: erm.. r u proposing to me? anyway, do u know that u need to book 1 or 3 months in advance for engagement? and besides, we got no $$..
dear: har?! need to book wan ah? aiyar, engagement no need $$ mah..
me: i know, but, i want to be married after 1 yr of engagement lor. u think u got the $$? n u call this a propose?! no flowers, no ring, no half kneeling, no "will u marry me?"
dear: erm... no need lar..
me: eh, u dun think that i with u so long then all these can be spared. u wait long long! u still have to give me a formal propose. at least a ring, flowers definitely n the sentence! anyway.. u really propose or just test water only?
dear: erm.. ask nia.
me: &*^%#!!~#%*)_
these few days he said he want a diamond ring for his birthday. i was ?! then he continued, then u buy liao give me for present then i give u to ask u to marry me lor.
again i $@!^&*@!^()^@~&()#~!!
but yesterday while we were going home, he did surprised me with one of his sentence..
he said: if i hadnt had so much debts, i would have asked u to marry me long ago.. we would probably have kids by now..
we talked about quite afew things yesterday.. but.. shant tell u guys! lol!!
Jerlyn Liselle